thurs after my check up for my arm.. i was thinking about something tat is hanging on to me in mind for so many years.. am i a burden to the team? after ytd trainin.. i had conclude tat.... i am... i did not expected i let the team dwn and cause them to lose because of me.. sigh... i noe some of them might be angry with me.. i am ok with tat..cause if they dwn.. i will.. in sec sch, injure most of my body.. i tot after joining poly dragonboat i will be fine... but my worst nightmare has come.. injuries had occur more and more now.. i m jus a weakling.. tat always injure here and there... in the team, some find me extra and kay po.. wat can i do? i am born to be like tat.. i cant change anithing in my life... i did not noe tat this stupid mistake would have cause some of them to totally lose trust in me.. i realli dono wat to say and wat to do.. i jus feel like digging a hole and hide forever.. i feel so guilty for being such a big burden to the teams which i join, no matter it is bball or DB.. i am jus a failure.. i jus cant do things rite... guys i am realli sorry.... ytd i broke into tears.. i realli dono who to seek help to.. i realli need help.. if not i will go nuts over this prob in my life...