After for so long, i finally blog.. but this time, i jus wan to cry out my pain within me.. sigh.. i was being told that i do not appreciate my frens.. my heart realli hurts when i heard this not because this words came out from a normal fren.. but this words came out from a fren that is close and noe me well... since young i am those who jian yi qi.. even quarrel with my family over frens... and some times no matter how tired i am, once frens call me i will sure to be there.. in poly i tot everythin will be the same as ever.. ended up i was the chi qi tong...onli they can disturb me i cannot disturb them.. for every to tease, for everyone to bully, for everyone to make fun or even insult my parents.... how about me!!! i endure so many insult and stuff, why cant they? i jus wan a normal and happy life.. and not every day being angry of ppl who kept bully me and i have to endure.. starting i tot jus forgive and forget.. but i cant.. i jus feeling sick and tired of this life style.. i jus wan to have a peaceful study life.. i never expect that i am named as a guy who don appreciate frens.. i don blame tat person cause it is coming out from that person's heart.. i am jus blaming myself for being sure an idiot.. i realli don wat to do and wat to say.. jus wan to cry it out loud and go crazy.. everything will be tat simple.. not in a good mood to slp.. kpt crying the whole nite and thinkin about the words tat has being told to me.. dono whether shld i cry or shld i be angry with myself.. my life becoming more and more f k'ed up..