Ni na me ai ta, wei she me bu ba ta liu xia... sigh... why am i feeling so down now.. though i wan to be with her but i cant be so selfish... i did all this so that she will feel better and can be able to find a better man than me.. i jus wan her to be happy...
but every nite.. i will always dream about her... i will always think of the times in china.. why. why cant i let it go? nan ren yao na de qi fang de xia.. i did those stuff like last time when i am facing prob and was able to solve. but i cant do it.. i will jus think about it.. i feel like breaking dwn sooner or later.. i... help me.. i know i am weak and not man enough.. but blame who but myself for being so emotional and sentimental.. i jus wan her to be happy and we still can be frens and there won't be any awkwardness btw us... tell me wat to do to remove this awkwardness and to make her happy again. even if i have to suffer the deepest pain. i don mind....